i am once again asking people i know to do actual research on OCD and what it is b/c i saw someone equating POCD to actual predatory shit recently and i think im going to break out of my enclosure . OCD is not about “subconscious desires” it’s about fear. fears, aversions and repulsions, both subconscious and conscious.
OCD forces you to obsess over things that make you anxious, scared, uncomfortable, or disgusted. possibilities (about yourself, your future, your loved ones and their futures, etc) that would give you nightmares if you considered them for too long.
literally the second you start thinking OCD may be about “subconscious desires” you have lost. you made an immediate left turn when you were supposed to make a right and now you’re on a completely different road.
this applies to all forms of OCD by the way, even the most “disgusting”, taboo or “disturbing”. whichever form of OCD you’re thinking may be an exception to this rule, is not an exception. b/c there is none
i legit havent felt this close to god’s love in weeks
People putting pictures of “ugly” and messy kitchens and saying that its their hell do not understand anything.
It’s your home.
The dishes are dirty because you ate, because you took care of yourself and you family. The paint is peeling above the stove from the heat of all breads you have baked and all teas you have brewed.
Heaven isn’t neat and perfect. It’s making coffee at 2 in the morning because you can, it’s the ugly feeling of sadness when a recipe goes wrong, its the comfort of peeling an orange to someone you love.
